I was thinking about my identity last night while driving the Dunkin’ Donuts truck. Who am I and what is important to me?
I know that first and foremost I am a child of God. God’s love in my life is evident and I would never change that.
I know that I am a husband and a father. I have two great kids who make me smile and laugh everyday. They can instantly change my mood and I am grateful for that. I also have a loving, beautiful supportive wife. I don’t know how I would of made it through seminary without her.
But after that what is there? What shapes me and keeps me going? What do I do during my “free time” — I look around and see people with these hobbies that they support and that they take time out for and it has been awhile since I have done that. I was talking with a friend the other day who asked me how my guitar playing was going. I can’t really say the last time I played guitar for “fun.” It is always church related. Part of that is my fault and part of that is life.
I think what brought this up was the fact that I was out at 1am driving the Dunkin Donuts truck. “Why am I still doing this?” I was asking myself. I belong to this great company called Shaklee, and we have started a home business from Shaklee. Our hope is to one day earn enough with it where Katie can stay home with the kids and maybe one day I would go to part time ministry, or we can travel and just have fun for awhile, between calls (I don’t think I could ever give up ministry totally). Until then Shaklee is keeping us healthy and happy. But instead of putting time and energy into that I am driving a truck at 1am doing something that I totally don’t like but having some extra money is good.
I would love to have Shaklee be a major part of our identity and I need to this week (among the other hundred things I need to do, thank God I don’t have class) is to figure out my priorities and I need to align them to come to a solid understanding of my identity and live that out in my daily life.