Have you ever had a lull in your life? You know a time where you just feel like it takes every bit of energy just to make it through the day? I have had a few of those days lately. But more than anything else I have had a creative lull. I would consider myself an artist of some kind. Over the years I have written music, I have spent time drawing, painting, and using other forms of creative expression. The last several years my main form of creative expression has been spent blogging and writing sermons.
However, lately I have had a hard time with any form of creativeness. I have not been blogging, I have had a hard time starting my sermons each week.
What do you do when this happens?
I started thinking over the summer that I was just too busy, between lots going on at the church, and at home I thought was looking forward to getting back in a rhythm this fall. But it seems like the craziness has not stopped — it just looks different.
This summer was filled with Camps, Mission Trips, Youth Gatherings, Vacation Bible School, Family Vacation as well as the day-to-day life “Stuff.” This fall has been constant with change, getting back to school, after school activities. My emotions have been running high and low. Oh and we moved again this past June.
Then I begin to read things — looking for inspiration. I start to find it.
In a Story about a trip to Haiti
Among other things.
What this has helped me do is to step back and get down to the basics. I think part of the problem has been that I have been spending so much time taking care of others I have not taken the time to care for myself. As Paul says in Romans 7
For we know that the law is spiritual; but I am of the flesh, sold into slavery under sin. I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate. Now if I do what I do not want, I agree that the law is good. But in fact it is no longer I that do it, but sin that dwells within me. For I know that nothing good dwells within me, that is, in my flesh. I can will what is right, but I cannot do it. For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I do. Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I that do it, but sin that dwells within me. So I find it to be a law that when I want to do what is good, evil lies close at hand. For I delight in the law of God in my inmost self, but I see in my members another law at war with the law of my mind, making me captive to the law of sin that dwells in my members. Wretched man that I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, with my mind I am a slave to the law of God, but with my flesh I am a slave to the law of sin.
Basically, I am not doing the things that I want to do. Some may call that being too busy, some may call that sinful, some may call that working too hard. Whatever it is, it needs to change. I need to be honest and faithful to God, my family, myself, my work and my friends. I need to find a way to balance everything in my life to fulfill my needs and the needs of the people around me. I still have hopes, dreams for this blog as well as for possible opportunities in my life and I can’t wait to share them and to reflect on them with you.
So what has been going on in your life? Please share in the comments.